“A strong woman is one who feels deeply and loves fiercely. Her tears flow just as abundantly as her laughter.”
I was born in Chicago but raised in Henderson, TN. Henderson is a one horse town (actually... a one stop light town) where the story never changes... everything is political and there are no secrets (or truths for that matter). My parents divorced when I was 8. I was a very old 8 year old. Knowing and understanding the truth behind a nasty divorce and an ugly custody battle will do that to you. And so will seeing your innocent mom's life being shattered to a million pieces. From that age on, I've had this odd sense that I have a lot of responsibility and control, if you will, in my family. My dad was a good divorced dad... paid child support, came to all of our sporting events, etc. However, he was never the "family" type. My mom was the best single parent to ever walk the face of the earth and has taught me everything I know. She's been through more than one woman should ever go through but has never let that get her down.
I believe I did pretty nicely for myself in high school then moved on to the University of Tennessee in Knoxville where I got my Bachelors in Nursing. A year ago I became a Registered Nurse at a great hospital in Nashville. I’ve been very blessed on my journey to get me where I am now. I’ve had many friends and many mentors who have coached me and helped me along the way. Like every other 20 something year old, college grad, with a crazy family history, life hasn’t been easy but I feel as if it all has made me stronger. I believe my morals, values, and standards have matured into something I can be proud of. I am well aware of my qualities… good and bad… and I am proud of who I have become.
The main reason I have posted “a preface” is because I want you to be aware of the type of person I am. Not necessarily the person I would like you to think I am… but the person I REALLY am. My best (and sometimes worst) quality is how emotional I am. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I don’t like words to go unsaid, I can’t go to sleep upset or mad, and I want those that I love to know it. How I feel is displayed on my face and in my actions. When I love, I love so deeply. When I hate, I hate so fiercely. And the list goes on and on. My emotional nature drives my actions and my decisions every day, and has ultimately landed me in the spot that I’m currently in.
Through the emotional roller coaster of this past year, I’ve had one life changing epiphany. I’m writing this blog to share with you the power that God has had in my life recently. Although I’m not where I need to be, I am continuing to grow and learn the lessons he has laid in front of me. I hope that by writing this blog I will learn more about myself and my relationship with God. Also, maybe someone else may find the answers they have been praying for.
I’m not a writer nor am I trying to be. I’m just going to try to tell my story the best way I can… honestly and with my whole heart.
Additionally, throughout this blog, I will discuss my "traumatic" life events. However, I would like to say that my "traumatic" events may not be like yours. Yours may be true traumatic events that I could never fathom going through! So, this is not some sad saga about my life. It is just about how I've taken the things in my life as lessons from God. I want to explain the things I think about and go through on a day to day basis. It is just an account of how I was able to overcome the things in my life that may seem oh so traumatic!!
ReplyDeleteAlso, as I read through this again, I see many grammatical errors, misspellings, and just odd concoctions of words. Please, please, please forgive me! I was a math girl in school!! :)